Wednesday, August 23, 2006

101 Days

Ugh. That's the only word to describe the current number of days we've waited for TA. Ugh. UGh. UGH! I actually have to create a new "Countdown to Asher" calendar because back on day 70 I refused to put any number larger than 100 as a possible waiting time. Guess I was wrong.

In other news, Jacob and Sam are back to school. Poor things. They are exhausted and grumpy. Can't say that I blame them. 6:15 is early...too early for people who not morning people. This would include Sam and myself.



Thursday, August 17, 2006

Day 94

Last night during my dreams Asher was calling MaMa. It was a very distinct, madarin voice gently calling for his MaMa. Every room I entered his voice would come from a different place. He was just out of reach. I never saw his face, but know it was his voice.

So, this morning I'm thinking about how all my children have very distinctive ways for calling for me. Jacob's been MOM! forever. Sam prefers a quieter Mom, sometimes with dramatic emphasis Mo-Om. Anna uses Mom-Mom a lot, and can do a rapid fire "mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, mom!" Mommy is out the window with her since her brothers rarely use it and she wants to be just like them. And, by the tone of their voice and the way they call, I can tell if they will be asking, complaining or upset by something and need to talk.

I'm so proud of my title, Mom. Nothing could ever compare to being Jacob, Sam, Asher & Anna's MOM! Mo-OM, MaMa & Mom-Mom. I am so blessed!!

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

With Six You Get Eggroll

Day 93

It does not look like there will be news this week. All the boards are quiet regarding TA. It's okay, I'm busy thinking of all the things that need to be done for school.

We will be busy with cross country & school events for the next several weeks, plus it's time to return to choir (yea!) and start Bible studies. This will be good for all of us.

Philip and I have decided to schedule breakfast & devotions with Jacob & Sam every morning. That means I will actually get up at 5:45...oh my! But, it's hard getting time to be with just them...and they are growing up so fast. We need to keep intentional about spending time with them and finding out how they are, really. I've been guilty of letting our TA wait consume me this summer...I hope to change that.

Oh, parenting is such a tough balancing act! Am I doing enough? Am I smothering? Do I need to do more? Memories of my high school years have been back in full force recently and I never want my children in the position I was as a teenager. Lord, please help me guide our children through this time.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Day 90

Here we are at 90 days. Can you believe it? But, I remain strangely calm. This is good news for the family! I think I have finally found out that I am not in control *gasp* and that's okay! Here's to remaining calm for the rest of our wait!